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It’s been a good chinese new year! Although I’d prefer if I didn’t fall ill. Having an upper respiratory tract infection.
Work’s been good too.
Thankful for God’s grace… just trying to move on with my life now :)
xx.
It’s been a good chinese new year! Although I’d prefer if I didn’t fall ill. Having an upper respiratory tract infection.
Work’s been good too.
Thankful for God’s grace… just trying to move on with my life now :)
xx.
I’m only best at being myself. No point trying to prove what’s not there.
I love my dad, but he’s annoying sometimes. And he certainly doesn’t have the tact to deal with my insecurites. Heh. The other day, I asked him why I was still single (wanted to hear what he had to say). And I regret asking.
He said things like, I’m not coy enough, I don’t know how to tease guys, flirt well, and so on. He says I clearly lack the hypocrisy that many girls use to snag a guy. My mum was no better. She said, well, there’s always SDU if you need help. There, there. Don’t worry about this, you’re still young. Let’s go on a holiday.
I know my parents love me deeply and mean no harm, but the things they say can be so selfish sometimes. But well, I think if I expected them to understand me, I’m setting myself up for disappointment. Because no matter how much parents love their children, they can never fully understand them. To be fair, I don’t fully understand my parents’ values at times, but they are certainly different than mine. I’m not saying I’m right and they’re wrong; I guess I’m just saying we have differences. And there comes a point in life I just wanna stop taking my questions to them, because this is the kind of regret I’d have to deal with afterward.
Ok. Regarding what my pop said. I know some girls have this ‘gift’ of being all coy and shy and just a different person in from of males (whether they realize it or not. I see it all the time), but I clearly lack in this. I know. I admit it. I am definitely not equipped with such skills, neither do I see the need to learn and hone such skills because to me, how you ‘snag’ a guy is how you’re gonna keep him. And so what if I do well in fooling the guy to fall in love with me? What next? In how many loving, committed relationships do you see the girl constantly putting in effort to flirt with her man. What kind of r/s is that anyway? Can’t speak for others, but certaintly not the one I’m looking for.
Tease guys? Seriously? So what I do is go around teasing all the guys is it? My dad has a warped perspective, man. If I carelessly do that, it’s not fair to the man out there I’ll ultimately marry. I don’t want him falling in love with a girl who falls in love with every Tom, Dick and Harry she meets.
I’m stubborn, and I refuse to believe that I have to behave in a different way just to get attached. I believe that I’m holding out for someone who’s not looking for a girl who flirts and bats her lashes at every male.
I’m direct, and I speak my mind or I don’t speak at all. So my guy’s gotta accept that and see that as a plus.
And my mom. How typical of her to never face problems head-on. Go on a trip indeed. Like that will solve all problems magically. SDU? I have nothing against matchmaking and dating agencies. I believe it’s a fantastic catalyst for people to meet each other. No stigma there. But it’s a personal conviction of mine, and it’s just between God and me, that I’m expectant that He’ll cause me to cross paths with my future partner.
I am a rather guarded person… I believe girls shouldn’t throw their pearls to anyone and everyone. Why not save it up for the guy who really deserves it?
So, as you can see, it was quite a blow from my parents. I feel hurt because the people who supposedly love me the most don’t understand these fundamental values I have. Obviously I didn’t get most of my values from them, for better or worse.
I just don’t see the point of changing who I am, because I’m only best at being myself.
I am a die-hard romantic at heart, and speed-dating and one-night stands just don’t cut it for me.
Should I opt for Nepal or Chiang Mai for my very first mission trip? I have been wanting to go for forever… and now the opportunity has presented itself and I’m not going to miss it.
Went for the outreach team ministry meeting last night. It was a good time of sharing. Apparently, I was invited to be part of the core team by a previous leader(who has since left) and so all I saw during the meeting was new faces.
I don’t know many people there, and the meeting yesterday was a tad awkward for me. I know I can’t expect people to always make the first move and wait for people to talk to me, I’ve gotta make the first move at times, but being pro-active is not something that comes naturally for me. I suppose it’s a skill that can be learnt and honed, so I tell myself that some discomfort is to be expected, and it will get better with time.
I’ve always been a lonely kid and social interaction is not something I’m good at. But I genuinely like people, and wanna connect with people.
OK. I digressed. What I wanted to say was that I’m truly thankful for the chance to go for a mission trip :)
Okay… I need to rant a bit about this past week – I was struggling with a lot of condemning thoughts. On top of feeling all hormonal because it’s that time of the month, I’m kinda caught in a sticky situation between two friends and I’ve had some minor feuds/misunderstandings with my family as well. The last thing you’d want after a long hard day is to go home to argue and quarrel, as if the day hasn’t had enough trouble already. There’s a lot of drama at work…
Have you ever had one of those days when all you wanted to do was to throw your hands up and give up? This week has been an entire week filled with those days. I don’t think I have ever felt more lonely than on these days. My thoughts run all over the place, and I snap at everyone.
But God’s been a faithful friend… you know the thing about God that is so wonderful is that when you need him to come down to your level and just be a listening friend who’s not gonna judge you, that’s what exactly he does… when I’m feeling so down and weary, the last thing I want is an Almighty God to come tell me what to do, what I’ve been doing wrong and what next to do… but Jesus is a comforting friend who’s not gonna judge you even when you begrudgingly moan about how sucky you think your life is… and when you’re ready to move on, He’s gonna be there to give you the strength to. Like, when you tell God, “I’m in pain”, God’s not gonna sit there and say, “You brought this upon yourself…” Rather, He says, “I know, and I care.”
Yup. Jesus is truly the only person who can bear my nonsense :) I am glad.
I’m learning all over again how to be mindful and enjoy this life that I’ve been given, and embrace the good and bad times. I believe that everything happens for a reason, and people enter and exit your life for a reason as well. Some experiences I go through are so intimate only the Lord knows… I think everyone has such experiences too… but I believe there are insights He wants to show me. And I’m slowly learning how to take to stride rejections and disappointments. I’m slowly learning to stop seeking answers but simply trust that He will do all that’s needed :)
I’m also learning to find meaning in all that I do, even the seemingly mundane and meaningless things, because what is useless and meaningless in my eyes has a purpose in Christ :)
Some days I really feel immensely lonely.
Like you are the only one who knows what you’re going through… at times like these I feel like things would be better if only I had a spouse/close friend by my side. Then I’d deeply hunger for a boyfriend and feel upset at God for not providing me one, haha. But of course, that mentality is quite childish. When I snap out of it, I’m reminded that God wants me to run to Him, not my spouse, first, whenever I’m met with troubles.
I do believe that God has a plan, and He’ll make all things beautiful in His time.
So in this season of singleness, I’m learning to be content with my life the way it is… as pastor said, a saint’s life is directed. It’s no coincidence that I am where I am right now in this stage of life. And so, I’m really glad that I’ll be more heavily involved with the ministry. I wanna get excited about it and enjoy each step of the way, rather than put my life on hold just cos I wish to be in a relationship. I’m excited about the new faces I’ll get to know, and the people I’ll meet. I guess I’ll just need to be more positive about life I guess! :)
Sometimes I feel like there’s no higher purpose for my life, but faith means carrying on even when there seems to be no reason to. At the end of my life, I hope to look back on the years I’ve lived and be thankful I didn’t give up. I suppose God’s got His plans for me, and I’ve got my part to play as well…
I’m just going to leave my life in His hands, and entrust to Him the keys of my heart.
It’s no point building your life around a man, around things, places or people, not even yourself … because it’s just a matter of time before they fail! My best bet is God… :) Alrightey.
X
Life is tough, but I remind myself that it’s an experience I’m to embrace with an open-mind, sorta like a passer-by than a permanent inhabitant, if you know what I mean.
Something about knowing that life’s not gonna carry on forever helps me see my daily challenges and struggles in new light.
After working for about half a year, I realized that I actually earned more respect as a student than as a working adult. If I don’t watch it, I’ll turn bitter. There’s this force compelling me into believing that I have to prove my worth, to earn respect, and that I deserve shitty treatment when I get it, because it’s all part of the rite of passage before I earn a status. Unknowingly, this is what I find myself believing… and I suppose it’s the same for a lot of people out there, especially in the country.
I find myself getting angry about all of it.
Certainly it’s not healthy to life live this way, with this attitude and mindset, or it’d only be a matter of time before I burn out…
But I thank God for this experience anyway, because it’s made me a wiser person, if only slightly. I need to learn to be more discerning when it comes to dealing with my colleagues. Sometimes, they make you do all the work but usurp all the credit. And when you do a 1 million things rightly, they’d still find something to find fault with. It really frustrates and upsets me a whole lot. I wish things would change, but I guess God’s still got His plans for me.
I feel very tempted to go to another hospital to work, but I don’t wanna be the kind of person that runs away the moment things get a little hard. And if God feels that the root issue lies within me more so than it lies with my circumstances, then changing jobs is not going to be the answer… I guess I just gotta suck it up and be a brave girl.
I feel disappointed cos people can get all-chummy with you, make you believe you’re really friends, then exploit that friendship for their personal gain. God bless their small heart… It’s one thing to hear about such people, and another to experience it yourself. But what I believe is that such people will be seared by their own conscience… so rather than exact compensation, let God deal with them. All things are in His hands, and under His control.
There’s this one colleague of mine, S, who’s a really kind and helpful lady. She’s genuine and sincere as a friend, a confidante, but when it comes to work, it’s another story. But who can blame people for being this way? I guess it’s just our innate human nature that makes us act this way. I feel really disappointed though… Oh well. Forget it. What’s the point of harping over such things? I’m just not one who’ll fight back, but rather contain anger and disappointment until I break down. Isn’t healthy, but I really don’t know how else to deal with it… except to trust that God’s grace shall manifest in my areas of weaknesses.
I suppose one can only connect the dots looking backwards…things happen for a reason. Things that seem meaningless may one day have a purpose… so, I just gotta keep on keeping on, no matter how life breaks my heart. I trust God.
Alright.
Gonna go.
Xx
Hey! Happy new year!
I’m having a long weekend break now, and it feels nice being all reclusive and sedentary :p
Seriously though, I’ve been doing nothing much ‘cept streaming movies and watching video clips. What can I say, my life is boring. Heh.
I’m in a happy mood, save for a tinge of anger over what happened last night: I beat a red-light, felt super bummed about it (I didn’t do it purposely) but my dad who was in the car with me had to keep going on and on about it. And at each traffic light he had to make some comment about where there was a red-light camera and so on. My dad just doesn’t know when to shut-up sometimes, and what amuses me the most is that he didn’t know why I was being angry, and assumed I was just being pms-y or whatever.
Oh well. Some people just can never get it, like my dad, he’s never been the type of person who’d take responsibility for his actions. He’d never apologize unless it’s needed to save his life. But it’s a new year, and I don’t wanna let my joy be sapped away like that. I’m just gonna trust God to take over this errant man. I love him, naturally because he’s my father, but sometimes I just feel so frustrated when things like this happen. (as they so often do)
This new year, I hope to be able to embrace my work in a whole new light. A lot of stuff had happened at work… and it’s dangerous when you tie your work with your identity. I’m glad for church and faithful friends who help me keep things in perspectives… But nothing that happens is a co-incidence, and I firmly believe God plants us in certain places for good reasons that may not be obvious to us. But it does take faith and trust to believe that there’s a good purpose for everything that happens. I wanna be a blessing to the place I work, and simply be faithful in the tasks I’ve been appointed to do.
Am glad for having met the people I did. This year, I hope that our relationships would be escalated :)
Yup.
Time for thanksgiving.
I had a great time at my relatives’ place yesterday… the fun, food, fellowship and food. Oops did I mention food twice? Yeah… food’s a big part of my life … the mince pie, glazed ham, log-cake and Moscato… mm mm mm
So yes. This year is coming to an end… I just wanted to take inventory of all that I’ve been so richly blessed with. 2011 has seen its ups and downs and round-and-rounds, but I just really wanna think on the good stuff. It’s been a year of many changes and transitions… and I know I’ve been really blessed:
My final year project. I met the nicest supervisor I could’ve ever met even though I didn’t get the project I wanted to do. This project was the 5th choice on my list of 10. (ha! 5 = number of grace)
Good success in my FYP. Had an A-, which is more than I could ask for.
Getting a job offer from my FYP supervisor that saved me a lot of stress from job-hunting :)
Convocation 2011. The biggest milestone this year. Glad to have finally officially graduated…
Resuming serving with Faith Kidz… the kids have been really awesome.
Going to USS for the first time with my elder sis. I see it as a start to the restoration of our relationship… though there’s still a long road ahead…
Restoration of friendships all around me, and the formation of new ones. (:
Amazing, helpful colleagues that I can click with, and an amazing boss. (who’s expecting a dragon baby boy next year YAY!)
Getting my first pay-check (and blowing it on everybody around me)
Buying my first Kate Spade bag :)
The P-plates are off. Haha. Wanna overtake me? Think again.
My uncle & auntie who were separated for the longest time, are gonna re-register their marriage.
My new house-helper, Grace, who happens to be a radical believer. She’s Indonesian, by the way.
Close friend getting engaged next year, another close friend got attached (I’m next in line ok, Jesus :P)
My bad hair-cut’s finally growing out. Hurhur.
My colleague crocheted from scratch a wristlet for me. OMGosh. <3
An amazing thing this year is also that God’s been sending me constant little reminders that it’s a year of His crowned goodness. My parents got me a purse for my birthday and it had a little tiara on it. My aunt gave me a pendant yesterday and it had a tiara… and for my DnD the theme was ‘night of the Royals’ (there never used to be a theme before), and my church friend gave me a little tiara to wear. It’s truly a year of crowned goodness :) God is faithful. But my trust is not to be in these visible crowns… the really powerful crowns are those that cannot be seen with the invisible eye.
Christmas is approaching! Tis’ the season to be jolly (:
There was news that this Xmas season, we are actually spending more on ourselves than others… Heh. Guilty as charged. You have no idea how much chocolate candy I bought for myself … If there’s one thing you need to know, it’s that I am a sucker for Xmas/seasonal candy since they come in the adorablest packaging and versions (: Of course, the wrappers end up in the bin anyway but I don’t care. Haha. To be fair though, I did buy quite a stash to give away as well :) Hehe. So that makes it less bad. Hur.
The weather’s been lovely lately… I keep KIV-ing to myself to get up early to run but I’ve been mostly sleeping in. It’s a waste to not sleep in this awesome weather, my friend. And I’m proud that I managed to sleep 12-hours non-stop this past Saturday. I’ve not done that in yonks. My sleep’s somehow intermittent and once upon a time I never believed that people could have difficulty going to sleep or staying asleep … now I believe it.
You know, we have a new house helper and she’s really special. Her name is Grace, she’s a Indonesian, but a Christian. She’ s quite radical in her faith I believe. And I can tell that she has character. What’s the litmus test for that? Well you see, being the dramatic family that we are, usually most maids will get so blown away by our domestic fights/arguments that they cry and say they wanna go home. Two out of the ten we had before actually attempted to run away … My mum can be quite a difficult character to deal with, but this Grace girl, she’s fantastic. She humbly says yes even when it’s not her fault … and the best part is, she’s pretty young. Younger than me, though the agency put up her age as 25. And my heart melted when I realized she sleeps with a purple teddy bear. Aww.
I have nothing else to say about my family … fights take place, tears fall, hearts break, but life has to go on. It can get real depressing some days… but it’s okay. Jesus sustains my life, and holds us together. amen.
This past weekend, the autistic children from the ministry I serve in (faith kids) managed to pull off a spectacular version of the Nativity story… Also my leaders are absolutely amazing … behind our backs they got the children to hand-make something for each of the teachers, with text that made me tear almost immediately. Heh (:
And more thanksgiving : my cousin just had their second baby, Seth Ethan :) Adorable little boy. And and and, my aunty and uncle who were separated for the longest time are re-registering their marriage … and this uncle used to not do so well in the past, but he’s been promoted to a general manager. Really touched by this cause he’s the softie that everyone bullies … who knew God saw something else in him? :) Really happy that all my relatives are safe and sound, healthy and whole …
I was supposed to have a potluck with my JC friends, but I had to give it a miss … but oh well. Jesus, please restore an even more amazing time the next time I get to meet them! :)
Okay. Now about the boringest thing of all : WORK.
Wow. Okay I’m generally thankful for everything at work, but there’s been some changes that’s left me feeling unsettled…
So a colleague of mine recently resigned, and her boss asked me if I would be keen to take over her duties … I really don’t know about this though. But I guess I’ll just stay put where I am because there’s been a lot of changes in work that I think I’m already trying to deal with. I don’t need another responsibility heaped atop my head. And our clinic has changed location… which means working with our bosses is gonna be doubly challenging. Oh well.
I have nothing to say, except God’s grace is sufficient, heh.
Okay!
Gotta go.
Life has it’s ups and downs and round-and-rounds, but God’s love will carry us through …
Don’t dismiss your life no matter how meaningless is has become for you… you need to stick around for the happy ending of your life…
While crossing the overhead bridge to the mrt station, this middle age guy collapsed and had a tonic-clonic seizure. It was sure dramatic to watch… a few passers-by and I witnessed the whole episode. The ambulance took quite some time. Apparently they couldn’t find the place … and they kept hearing ‘epileptic shock’ as electric shock haha. Yeah sure, an electric shock while crossing the overhead bridge…
He had 3 episodes that lasted about 20 minutes. Had to keep holding his head cos the spasms were causing him to hit the wall at the side. Okay I’ve never seen a fit before. Poor guy … he starting foaming at the mouth as well. But thank God he was already in a fetal position, so no worries that he’d choke. There was this other indian guy who offered to hold his hands, since the guy kept biting his own thumbs. The funniest part was when the medics arrived, this med student started prodding here and there, feeling for pulse and breathing and everything … but what he didn’t know what that the initial assessment was already carried out, and he was definitely conscious. And the ecg was already plugged to the guy, so I don’t know why he didn’t realize that and started feeling for a pulse haha. in the end, he got chided. And he just walked off LOL
Yup. Tonic-clonic seizures are probably the most dramatic kind of seizures there are … I hope the guy’s OK now.
Life has been … pretty OK. Heh. Work’s getting more challenging, but I suppose it’s good to step out of my comfort zone.
Was feeling rather depressed the whole last week… the days leading up to my period are nothing short of depressing, really. But thank God! The skies have cleared :)
This morning as I was driving to work I was so distracted by the sunrise … it was gorgeous :) I wish time would freeze. Wasn’t keeping my eyes on the road heh heh… but the expressway was quite empty.
Yup. Life has it’s ups and downs … it’s what makes life, life.
But in the face of trials, I know God wants me to declare by faith that life is good.
One area where I’m currently facing the greatest frustration is probably my love-life. Heh. Just being honest … there seems to be a drought of men in my life at the moment. So it’s hard, really. Hard to believe, at times, that God sees or that He cares at all. But faith means believing in light of these things. He who promised is faithful… and His faithfulness He himself can never betray…
Xx
…the season of giving begins. I’m pretty excited … all the gifts I’m getting are consumables though. Because I love to receive food (as long as it’s good I like it already), so I assume it’s the same with others. LOL. Oops. But still… I think they are pretty darn special. (:
It’s my organization’s DnD tonight! Was rather excited about it, but it’s seemed to have waned. I spent quite a bit on my outfit and accessories, and I’m even planning to go for a makeover later. But… Yeah. Yesterday night the thought of skipping it altogether flitted across my mind. But anyway! I’ll try to have fun. It’s my first. I guess it’s partly cos I broke out. Also, I have been pms-ing quite badly, snapping at a lot of people, getting pissed at people around me (not fun).
I’ve been dealing with quite a bit at home and at work. I believe it has part to do with my personality that I do sink into a deep blue funk every now and then. I know it certainly goes beyond PMS. I wouldn’t go as far as to say that it’s depression, but I’m inclined to believe that it’s in that region between sadness and depression. Heh. Do I even make any sense at all? Yeah. But thanks to His Word, somehow by His grace, I’ve decided to make the decision to move on from all the pain, regrets, mistakes and frustration of my yesterdays and yesteryears. Life’s too short to live it chronically stressed.
I don’t regard my life as much. Looking all around me, people seem to be achieving greater glory. It makes me feel real lousy about myself sometimes… But I’m gonna snap out of it and thank God anyway, that He’s given me this life. Too much have I taken for granted…
Since God values my life more than I do, it makes sense that He should have it more than I should.
So I’ll just trust Him. If He can map out the course of the migratory birds, what more for me? (:
One thing I’ve also learnt at work is that your colleagues will always feel (at least I’m given this impression) that their work is more important than yours, especially if you’re new to the team. Also, some feel that the organization employed you to serve them, and some expect you to be at their beck-and-call even if you know that ain’t really part of your job scope. The past day I felt very sorry for myself because of this. It’s obviously not a pleasant feeling. So, yeah. God reminded me that He is my rewarder, and He’s watching.
For all the hard effort you put into a project, someone else may claim all the credit for the good, while making you feel bad for the not-so-good parts.
That’s why I strongly advocate pivoting your trust on His faithfulness in rewarding the things you do, in secret or not. Let there be a touch of Jesus, a touch of quality in your work. People will sense it … regardless of how much they like/dislike you. Amen (:
I realized that there’s so much I have to learn. Times are trying … Some days I feel burnt out. But I know God placed me here for good reasons… at least I know, if I’m in a trial, something in me is being refined, and every experience He allows is to prepare me to walk in a greater fold of His blessing.
I don’t know if I’ve shared this before, but the desk I’m allocated is 56cm by 56cm, a perfect square. And it’s just beside the sink and biohazard bins. It makes working quite challenging, as I get sprinkled by water all day, and filing is almost impossible to do. There seems like a lot to be unhappy about, but I know that I’ve just gotta take things in my stride. My dad wanted to order a table and have it delivered to the office, but could you imagine the implications of that? Heh. So no. I’ve decided to stick it out and thank God anyway.
Sometimes I get bitter and envious (hey I’m just being honest k) about other doctors who’ve worked they way up. Without paying any attention to my thoughts I immediately assume they’re having an easier time, a higher income, they don’t have to worry about parking, they get all the respect in the hospital, all the vip treatment, etc. But if I don’t watch it, this bitterness is gonna destroy me …
So yeah. I thank God that I don’t have to have such a poverty-mindset : If He can do it for others, sure He can do it for me as well, as long as I remain numbered among those who believe God is a willing and able God, rather than those who turn bitter and forsake their own destiny.
Yup.
Alrightey!
I think I’ve blabbered enough.
Have a great week :)
Xxx
In the environment that I grew up in, discontentment, anger, bitterness and strife were elements that were more often than not, present. I suppose in a way, it has influenced the way I think and perceive things this day.
When I find myself getting bitter and upset about life, I need to remind myself that that doesn’t have to be the way. I have the choice of turning everything over to Jesus, and allowing myself to be filled with His joy and delight. He, after all, is the fine flour that removes the poison from the stew, and the wood that makes my bitter waters sweet :)
Even now as a believer, even now as an adult, I find myself getting bitter/envious/jealous on occasion. But thank God, He always draws me back to Jesus’ heart of love for me, and it’s hard to stay bitter :) There are too many things in life to be thankful for…
And God is faithful. With the pen of the story of my life in His hands, there shall be a good ending. If it’s not a good situation I’m in, it only means its not the end. And with all other things, this too, shall pass.
One thing I’ve noticed is that people either grow more bitter or mellow with age … I’d like myself to be in the latter group.
Life’s too short to live it angry and resentful…
Hanging on to bitterness and grudges seems counter-intuitive but it’s what most of us do anyway. So, for me I’d choose to let God handle it all, and live life carefree :)
Okay. To be more specific, when there’s news of someone getting a promotion, or getting engaged, or just got attached, etc, I don’t automatically rejoice for the recipient, honestly. I do feel a sting on the inside. It’s almost like a reflex that I cannot control. My heart sulks, basically. I plaster a megawatt-smile on my face, but my heart’s really sulking. Heh. If I let this bitterness go unchecked, it’s really going to consume me and corrupt my character. So, it’s vital that I really just let Him love me into wholeness… and take time in His presence to remind myself that God has His special plans for me, in the face of what I see. He doesn’t want my eyes to be on others’ blessings, He doesn’t want my eyes on myself (what did she do to deserve it that I didn’t), He wants my eyes fixed on His love, His promises, and His faithfulness that never fails.
Another thing that helps me is remembering that if I really got what I deserve, it would be hell on earth. But no. He died for me, He bled for me, to let me claim salvation’s gift. And He’s already done so much for me. What kind of person would I be if all I could do was take inventory of what God hasn’t yet blessed me with and blame Him for it?
God sees from ending to beginning, and He has a special plan tailored just for you and I. There’s no point complaining, comparing, or growing bitter … He who promised is faithful. Rejoice with others when they see their hopes manifest… one day, when it’s your turn, you’ll want them to also rejoice with you :) Sowing joy into others’ lives enlarges your heart in preparation for your own promise :) And it makes you a beautiful, courageous person, because rejoicing for others takes strength and courage, and faith.
:)
